A Predicament

There are four major guys in my life right now:

1. He likes me but I don't know how I feel about him.

2. I find this boy very attractive, but we've never gone as far as smiling at each other in the hallways.

3. This boy is the one I want so badly to love, but I can't quite bring myself to gather that fuzzy feeling in the pit of my stomach. He seems almost like a brother — not what I want.

4. I love this guy. He hurt me terribly. I can't forgive him, nor can I get over the immense feelings I hold towards him.

It is interesting, how the world of love works.

Boy #1 just confessed his feelings for me and claimed to never hurt me. I told him I needed to think about all that is going on (meaning the other guys). Boy #2. Well, there's not much to say about him. The most interaction we've ever shared was when he added me on Facebook. Yeah, it got pretty intense. Boy #3 is the same one I wrote about in my first post titled My Inspiration. As previously mentioned, he is more like a brother to me. Everything about him is what I would want in a potential love, but, I'm not sure what to do about it. Or even if there's anything I can do. Boy #4 is the one I wrote about in Utterly Stupid Vulnerability. It's remarkably hard to put the experiences and emotions into words but after hours of editing, that post was what I ended up with. It was surely the entry I spent the most time on. It was worth it.

I'm so confused about who I should let go or if I should consider one boy over the others.