Sometimes I feel so ashamed. Not because of the mistakes I've made or the pile of remorse stacked in the back of my mind, but because I take much less time than what I should spend to appreciate Earth and all it's glory.
These past few weeks, I have been rather stressed about many events that were very personal. When I get upset over something, my mind tends to bring back past problems that occurred in my life, resulting in my frustration being ten times worse than it needs to be. I become lost in a dark, lonely place that only I can go. It grabs hold of me and welcomes me into it's depths in the most unfriendly way possible. Pulled in too deep for escape, I become trapped in this endless pit of misery that I like to call "my mind." But that's only when I'm in a bad mood. Fun, right?
Now, however, the majority of stress has been removed from it's temporary resting place on my shoulders. I feel light, pushing aside the fact that I never lost weight; in fact, I probably gained weight from all the chocolate I ingested (I basically inhale the melting squares of deliciousness when I'm agitated).
Doesn't my life seem so appealing, like you'd just want to switch places with me for a while? No. And that's exactly my point. I have an annoying tendency to pay attention to all the bad things in life when really, my focus should be on Earth's beauty. I am adding the time it takes to appreciate the good in life to my list of very important and life-changing goals; you know, things like own a plastic lawn flamingo, use a "spork", be part of a flash mob. Yeah. Things of that high relevance.
The world is truly fascinating. There are so many places to see, whether it be across the globe, or right across the street. I need to remember that most of the things I have, I don't necessarily need and there are people who have nothing and are still happier than I. My family, home, friends, food, clothing; those are just the basics, and even having them in my possession isn't always enough. Nature is the source of elation. It is the founder of true wealth. Man can build himself up to be all he wants to be. He can earn himself a position of authority or a higher social status. All the money in the world could be in his possession, stuffed into the giant safe in the rear of his outstandingly huge solid gold mansion. Yet, he will never feel pure jubilation unless he takes even a single moment in the day to enjoy Earth. Enjoy living.
Materialized luxuries are great, don't get me wrong. They increase our quality of life and can also allow us to rejoice faster. However, it is crucial to remember that even a man with nothing but the street alleyway he lives in can be filled with more ecstasy (no, not the drug, the feeling…although you never know with some folks these days…) than one whom believes they have all to be had. Sometimes it can be hard to find simple allure in life, as it was for me. No matter how cheesy it sounds, the only way to discover euphoria is to believe that it is and will always be there, waiting, prospering, radiating hope.
